1. |
Coming To
08:56
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Coming To
I still remember those flashing bright lights,
But I came to find no big city in sight.
No super trouper to shine down on me...
Darkness and silence: what does it all mean?
I can remember a surge of road rage
All over me after I left the stage.
I sped through the night and I only saw red.
I'm not dead, I can't be dead, but I know I am dead.
I don't know where I am now, but I know where I've been.
I'm sure it's not the time for me to leave the scene.
I know where I must be, but I don't know what to do.
I wish I knew what is this place wherein I'm coming to.
Mozart played on the radio: was that a sign?
I was hurrying home and I crossed the line.
Lost in Requiem's waves, I loosened my grip
And my journey to you turned into my last trip.
I have no faith and it's too late to pray.
I'm not not too young to die and not too old to play.
By playing my songs I may still win this game
If only I could remember your name
I don't know where I am now, but I know where I've been.
I'm sure it's not the time for me to leave the scene.
I know where I must be, but I don't know what to do.
I wish I knew what is this place wherein I'm coming to.
It's not a dream, not a broken string:
I sure ain't one of those substances-addled fiends,
Although they say I always thrive on strife.
But what is this place where we go to after life?
It's a place like no other I've been to before.
I hear footsteps approaching, so there must be a floor,
And if someone came in, I can find a way out -
Only I hear no echo when I try and shout.
I start to see something through the mist in my mind
And recall all the faces that I left behind.
I recall you, I love you, I don't know how to call you,
But I'm sure I should get back to you after all.
I don't know where I am now, but I know where I've been.
I'm sure it's not the time for me to leave the scene.
I know where I must be, but I don't know what to do.
I wish I knew what is this place wherein I'm coming to.
And now I'm coming to.
But what's it coming to?
Where am I coming to?
I'm coming home to... who?
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2. |
Ain't No Avalon
06:33
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Ain't No Avalon
"So here you are," I hear a voice.
"You're one of those old wicked boys,
Who never want to know no rest,
Who feel so privileged and blessed,
Because you're restless.
You never want to wear no tie
Cause you're afraid of ties that bind.
But you have never feared no sin.
The late arrival on the scene
That has no guest list."
What do you know! And what the hell!
My story's not for you to tell.
Though it may not have ended well,
My name should surely ring a bell -
I was a singer.
And though I'm here, where fear holds sway,
I don't greet darkness with dismay.
I sailed the seven seas of sin
To recognize the place I'm in:
No place to linger.
It might be limbo but I don't belong:
It ain't no Avalon.
But I'm still rolling on and on.
The thrill ain't never gone,
Until I sing my song -
No glory here: it ain't no Avalon.
I'm not a gallant knight, I'm not,
But I am not prepared to rot,l
And now I clearly see what's what:
To tie the knot or cut the knot -
It never was a choice.
I thought I'd always live alone
Until I found my only one -
Whom I was proud to call my wife,
Someone most precious in my li..."
I see," replied the voice.
It might be limbo but I don't belong:
It ain't no Avalon.
But I'm still rolling on and on.
The thrill ain't never gone,
Until I sing my song -
No glory here: it ain't no Avalon.
"But life's a lie," it said. "You see,
And death is sweet eternity,
A place where you can be at rest,
Unless you want one final quest."
Oh yes, let me go!
"You're not the same, so here's your game:
The key is to recall her name."
But this is what I'm trying to do!
So what the hell! And who are you?
"The echo of your ego."
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3. |
Echo of My Ego
05:38
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Echo of My Ego
It's all smoke and mirrors,
It ain't no wishing well,
So I will rock my fears and
Roll the circles of hell.
There ain't nothing to buy
And nothing to sell,
So why should I
Still lie to myself?
Thinking I was the greatest,
Flying high as a kite,
Turned out only a playtest
For me losing sight
Of what was forgotten,
Of what's wrong and what's right,
Before I felt rotten
In this endless night.
It weighs me down, it keeps me here,
It doesn't let me disappear:
That's why I've got to let it go -
The echo of my ego.
So note by note, at any rate,
I let my pride evaporate:
That's why I've got to let it go -
The echo of my ego.
INSTRUMENTAL SECTION
Pride came before a fall - too soon,
So tell me: is that it?
'Cause now I have to sing my tune
That never was a hit.
It was never a burden
To be thriving on strife;
It's always been blurred in
My everyday life.
It used to encroach on
My long-suffering wife
Whose silent reproach
Cut me deep like a knife.
It weighs me down, it keeps me here,
It doesn't let me disappear:
That's why I've got to let it go -
The echo of my ego.
So note by note, at any rate,
I let my pride evaporate:
That's why I've got to let it go -
The echo of my ego.
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4. |
A Way out for the Weak
04:14
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A Way out for the Weak
Was my life a load I lifted
But couldn't carry?
Was it why I tried to shift it
Onto Charon's ferry?
Was my death an accident
Or did it go just how I planned?
I wish I could remember
How it came to this.
I'd see a rainbow and I'd shoot it -
Possessed by color:
That was how I forgot my duty
And lost my valor.
Was I really so bold
To put a sad end to it all?
A call of eternity
Isn't easy to resist.
It's a way out for the weak -
And I don't know how I could do it.
It's a way out for the wicked -
And I apparently fell through it.
Find the door to see the dancer,
Life's not a barrel you can scrape.
Suicide is not the answer -
It's a cowardly escape.
I never wanted to surrender
To circumstances.
I'm never scared to bend my fender
When danger dances.
But leave my loved ones in the lurch,
To wonder why and always search
If they're the ones to blame for
My endless mist?
It's a way out for the weak -
And I don't know how I could do it.
It's a way out for the wicked -
And I apparently fell through it.
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5. |
The Game of the Name
05:33
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The Game of the Name
The Game Of The Name
I see flickering light
But I'm not on the stage:
I abandoned the cage
Of my body tonight.
I failed to take flight
But I'm still bound to fall,
And I cannot recall
All the rules of this rite.
This right I cannot claim -
I'll be playing along:
I'll be singing the song
That I wrote in your name.
If I lace up the lines
And I don't get it wrong,
Maybe I will be strong
To connect all the signs.
A lick of a whip -
The luck of the lame.
A stiff upper lip -
The Game of the Name.
I take one more sip:
Ain't no one to blame,
No time left to rip
The Game of the Name.
I play this game,
I don't seek fame
Nor glory.
I only strive
To come alive
And not be sorry.
Solo
If I can keep my poise,
I'd deliver my piece,
I'd be able to squeeze
Past the thing that still cloys:
The display of my ploys
That I grew to dislike.
Now the time comes to strike,
But I have no voice.
A flip of the switch,
A lick of a flame,
No burning the witch:
The Game of the Name.
Dark as a pitch
Is a shadow of shame.
I'm crossing the bridge -
The Game of the Name.
I'll win this game,
I'll taint the tame
With worry.
I will not bend -
It's not the end
Of my sad story.
The Game of the Name x4
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6. |
Voices in My Mind
05:01
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Voices in My Mind
Stuck in nowhere, making no sound
I was lost but I want to be found.
Are you listening? I'm less than a ghost.
But you'll hear me, no matter the cost.
Stuck in nowhere, making no sound
Can't believe I'm oblivion-bound.
Will I live to deliver my song?
Here's an answer I knew all along
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
Here I am: A ghost from my past,
Devoured by shame. Don't give a damn
The die has been cast - I'm playing this game.
Stuck in silence, I let out a scream
All my foibles and sins to redeem
Ain't no space and no time to be tame
Till mymelody spells out the name.
Stuck in silence, I let out a shout. I
don't know what is waiting without:
Ain't no stage light to shine down on me,
But I don't care at all since I'll get to be free.
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
Here I am: A ghost from my past,
Devoured by shame. Don't give a damn
The die has been cast - I'm playing this game.
Can you hear me? It's the sound out of nowhere,
The song to lead me Right there where you are. Will you hear me,
Seeking higher and lower For you who can read me If I'm near you or if
I am so far...
I waited so long - Or was it a mere moment
Since I arrived here And looked into my soul?
I wanted so strong to escape my life's torment,
But now I know my fear Was what made me fall.
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
Vibrant voice In a bodiless mind:
No-one's choice - Only mine, only mine, only mine.
On and on, Throw a line to the blind
Here's my song, Hear the voice in my mind.
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7. |
Outside Whorl
04:23
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Outside Whorl Verse
A lone voice in the wilderness -
Call of the wild From beyond.
Vestiges of a bitter mess
Blend into a smile On and on.
What was found and what's been lost?
Return at any cost -
All is said and done. Can't you see?
I grasp a distant memory,
A silent song.
Don't set my sights on eternity of a dream.
Floating up on a stream To a simple light.
Outside whorl - It keeps on swirling,
Calling to me To escape this limbo whirl.
Outside whorl - It's still unfurling,
Freeing me To reshape my inner world.
I can't feel it anymore -
The blessed calm Will never come.
What have I been looking for?
It's better to be sore Than to be numb.
I've been gone, erased from life,
A loser in the rye, Going round and round.
Can't you see? I'm longing to be free
I'm homeward bound.
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To right the wrongs Might be the hardest task,
But I will never ask Where do I belong.
Outside whorl - It keeps on swirling,
Calling to me To escape this limbo whirl.
Outside whorl - It's still unfurling,
Freeing me To reshape my inner world.
I'm coming back even though I died,
Your name that was in my song Is my guide
Outof the darkest place
On to the brightest sun To the morning sky,
From the great divide.
Outside whorl - It keeps on swirling,
Calling to me To escape this limbo whirl.
Outside whorl - It's still unfurling,
Freeing me To reshape my inner world.
Outside whorl - It keeps on swirling,
Calling to me To escape this limbo whirl.
Outside whorl - It's still unfurling,
Freeing me To reshape my inner world.
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8. |
Vanishing Point
05:39
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Vanishing Point
Will you think of me, if I am not back?
Will you feel for me, when I am gone?
I'm stuck in static noise in this cul-de-sac,
Chased by memories, nowhere to run.
But I will return, so mad at myself:
I'm the only one who let it burn.
I am still possessed, the grief that I sell,
Eaten by regrets - no way to turn.
Vanishing point
Where no one will see me.
Whipping post
Where no one will save me.
Wishing well
Where no one will find
Living hell -
A piece of peace of mind.
Doom dealt me this deck: the deal was tainted.
But I never was a slave of fate.
Going down in style is good - or ain't it?
Fans are going to faint, but it's too late.
Too late to be safe and to be sorry -
If I vanish, I have lived in vain!
It's no Avalon, I'll find no glory.
If I stay, I'll turn into a stain.
Seize me before I disappear.
Appease me: you're all that I hold dear.
Flee me, I'm my own greatest fear.
Free me - the end is drawing near.
Vanishing point
Where no one will see me.
Whipping post
Where no one will save me.
Wishing well
Where no one will find
Living hell -
A piece of peace of mind.
Vanishing point
Where no one will see me.
Whipping post
Where no one will save me.
Wishing well
Where no one will find
Living hell -
A piece of peace of mind.
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Will You Take Me Back (To The Fold)?
I'm on my way out...
But what will I find?
One more reason to doubt
My restored peace of mind?
I'm on my way back -
But are you still there?
Will you cut me some slack
Will you give me some air?
Give me some air
Arrest me and dress me
In orange or stripes,
But don't refuse me,
Don't deny me.
Impress me and stress me,
Come to grips with my gripes,
And try to use me
One more time.
I'm returning to you but will you take me back?
I found my own self in your name, in the black.
Will you take me home?
I've been out in the cold.
Grab my hand, hold me tight, take me back to the fold.
Will You Take Me Back to the fold?
To the fold x2
I want to return -
At least, that was the plan.
But what have I learned
To make sure that I can
Find my way back to light,
Find the road, find the route
Away from the fright
And reach out for the fruit.
For the fruit
For the fruit
Arrest me and dress me
In orange or stripes,
But don't refuse me,
Don't deny me.
Impress me and stress me,
Come to grips with my gripes,
And try to use me
One more time.
I'm returning to you but will you take me back?
I found my own self in your name, in the black.
Will you take me home?
I've been out in the cold.
Grab my hand, hold me tight, take me back to the fold.
Will You Take Me Back to the fold?
To the fold x2
Solo
I'm returning to you but will you take me back?
I found my own self in your name, in the black.
Will you take me home?
I've been out in the cold.
Grab my hand, hold me tight, take me back to the fold.
Will You Take Me Back to the fold?
To the fold x2
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